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Do you ever feel alone? yet, there are people all around you? Have you ever felt uncertain even though you know exactly what you are doing? have you ever longed to be loved but you know that you are more than you know... Why is it that somedays you must feel the way you do... and that no matter how you look at it, it just seems like a bad day... or week... huh... who knows! maybe its because i am sleepy and stressed and worried, or maybe its because i am a girl... but whatever it is... i guess that is just how i feel today...

Dont get me wrong, i know life is wonderful and i can see it is. it is a beautiful wonderful glorious thing... and i will appreciate it more in a few minutes... but for now i am going to go to bed and just let it all go. cause sometimes you just have to let things go and move on.

Just gotta let it out!

I have so much happiness, that I cant even try to write the way i truly feel. I have a continual feeling of peace, love, joy, excitement, modivation, determination, support, self respect. I thank those in my life that help a gal out like me. You are the reason that i have this feeling. I owe every person who has ever smiled at me a million smiles. I owe every person who has ever complimented me a million compliments. I owe every soul who has shared with me their feelings, a million heart felt conversations. I owe all those who have given me a gift, a million gifts more and a million times better. I owe all those who have lent an ear to listen to me in my deepest times, a million listening moments. I owe all those people in my life who are great examples, a million "thank you" 's for influencing my life for the better. I love this earth, I love my brother, I love my family, I love my dog, I love music and nice weather. Quite simply today i feel greatful for the wonderful life i have been blessed with. I love this life, and all those who surround me every day. I am a very lucky girl, one of the luckiest i would even dare to say. Thank you!

Double Baked Cookie Monster

We walked in a little bit late cause well, i had to shower. of course.

I clocked in as he washed his hands, then we switched and simlpy went our seperate ways.

I did my thing, he did his.

All night however as i walked the happy (and not so happy) customers to their tables, i was watchin him whenever i could. Stalker? Yes. Do i care? Hahah not at all. He is cute in his uniform :)

I waited for him in the car snuggled up in my big blanket just listening to the cd he gave me.

And when he finally came out with a big smile on his face, he hopped into the car and handed me a bag of two ultra large cookies... "we are going to make cookie monsters"... Excitment light up his eyes.

We walked into his kitchen. He scooped ice cream on our warm cookies. Then drizzled caramel sauce on the top of our cookie monster treats. We sat down and laughed. And smiled. And consumed our lovely plate of warm chocolate chip cookie, ice cream and caramel. yummy.

I wanted out of my work clothing. So he grabbed my hand and we skipped to get some clothes, and the cutie he is- He lent me his clothes just to wander around in. We snuggled up on the couch after his treats and changing and watched a movie. We pulled out his phone to text eachother silly little texts... but they werent really sent hah... we stole little kisses here and there. I watched his eyes light up when i would smile. I watched him out of the corner of my eye stroking my hand with his fingers. I could have laid there for forever and ever...

We closed his front door laughing as i ran in his oversized clothing to Alice (my car) and he chased me to her door. Curfew called me home and i had to depart... But as i pulled away he made a heart with those fimilar hands and wore that big grin on his face- the one he only gives to me... and i knew i would be just fine cause i had soaked up every minute of our time :)

I love those simple nights when the world is quiet and nothing much is planned but a Double baked cookie monster. Those are the best of the best Because it is Mostly smiles and laughter and silly little memories made. And that is price less :)