Saturday, July 30, 2011

just four little letters.

Its that feeling you know so well.

Where your heart picks up its pace like its going somewhere, like it is going to jump out of your chest and do a little dance.

Its that feeling you miss so much.

Where you wish that at night when you lay your head down that it were laying there with you. Right next to you. Tied to you. Never letting go.

Its that feeling you wish for.

When you are driving alone and "your" song comes on. Your mind plays back exactly where you were and how you danced and how he smiled at you.

Its that feeling that confuses me.

I want it so badly, but realized i miss giving it more. with every fiber in me, i want to give.

Its that feeling i felt last night.

When i layed in the grass and took a stroll down memory lane. My eyes closed i just remember what we had said, done and laughed at on that same grass.

Its that feeling that makes you crazy and sane.

Its that feeling that keeps you up at night but puts you to sleep.

Its that feeling that makes me and breaks me.

Its that feeling that brings so much hurt yet so much joy.

Its that feeling again.

I felt its sweetness last night.

Its that feeling again.

That familar feeling of love.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Opposition in All things

The bright beautiful colors of a sun rise would never be as briliant without the night.
To truly appreciate a clean dish you have to see it filthy.
Summer would hardly be as special if we didnt have to go through nine months of school.
A paycheck would not be as satifying without the hours of work you put forth to get it.
Food in a hungry tummy wouldnt be as filling without first the aching hunger.
Seeing a person for the first time in a while wouldnt be as exciting if you had seen them every day for ten years.
To truly appreciate togetherness, you must first be alone.
A soft pillow wouldnt be as comforting without sleepy eyes.
Sweat must fall in hours of practice to feel victorious when you have won the final game.
Flowers never look more beautiful when the creep up through the last melting snow.
Air conditioning feels best when stepping out of the pounding heat.
Smiles are never brighter then after a good cry.
Confidence comes from being unsure at first.
Hot waffles taste better after a week of wheaties for breakfast.
Blue skies are never more blue then after a rain storm.
To know what peace is, you have to know what stress is.
New life would not be as valuable without the knowledge of a passed loved one.
Feeling healthy is best after you have been sick.
Happiness is learned only after you learn what sad is.
White looks cleaner, next to black.
To know what love is you must experience hurt.

To truly appreciate life, you must see the opposition in all things.
Cause it makes the bright, even brighter.
And that is beautiful.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

The clouds roll across the sky puffy and white.
The birds chirp their little songs and life could never be better.
Fun, laughter and smiles. You're out and about with so many people.
With all the friends and girls you please.

I sit here and find myself struggling. At little things, stupid things. Yet they hurt.
Clouds roll over my head now adays but i dont go out to see them. I sleep or write.
I cry about the old days. I want to be out and about too but havent a clue who to call...
And they dont call me... and if someone does. im at work. and its too late.
Over so much time my relationships dwindled with others and there isnt much left.
Its my fault i know, and that makes it worse.
But it was an accident cause well, i was head over heels for you...
Dont get me wrong, im happy that you're happy.
you just wont see it on my face.

For you the earth kept spinning
For me... it didnt.

it hurts to be replaced.