Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Punches and Blows Hurt Less

Sticks and stone may break my bones but words will never hurt me,
But if only you could see.
That really the body can take its blows time after time and always heal,
But time after time of nasty words you really cant help but feel.
Whatever you may hear,
I am beinging to fear,
That some will believe.

Consider your source and ask yourself,
Should i take that down or leave it on my shelf?
Is it really important to degrade a human being,
A human being... who has feeling?
Just like you do.
Does this need to be said?
Should i leave this in my head?

Careful what you say and do please,
Cause what you say and do, doesn't only effect you.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Do i Have Another Choice?

I cant;
the way it is will be no more.

I wont;
im fed up with it. honestly.

I am sorry;
sorry it had to fall apart like this.

But i wont let this get me down;
peace is in sight, sad as that may be.

no more lies, no more pain, no more mothering to some that is not mine.

i am free to be me.
I wish you the best of luck;
cause you think that you know what is best for you, okay fine.
this will be best for me.

"so stop telling me what to do"

enough said.

I cant;
no more miss me, eating the food you want me to see.
i am fed up and full of all the crap you have given me.

I wont;
feel much more than this

I am sorry though;
good luck. its a tough world out there.

But this wont let me down;
cause you pushed me away.

make your own life;
you said it yourself you wanted to be acknowledged,
and this will get you that...
no more sidekick
become your own hero (?)
if you can
But no more of this
"you did this by yourself"
so im just letting you go,
go do it by yourself like you want...
do whatever you want.
cause you already have anyways.
i didnt let you down i realize that,
but i am sorry that you couldnt hear or see what i tried to do for you...
oh well, all you can do is say, i tried my best... right?
amd i have, more than once.
its sad this just isnt working out.
dont think that this is just becuase of your recent mistakes,
i just cant take it,
the same ones being made over and over again.
im proud you have your life in order. i really am.
i hope that you keep it that way.
honestly i do.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Blow Away in the Wind

As i sit here and look at the computer screen my mind is fluttered with thoughts...

How do i say what i need to say?
You know, that thing that has been running, twirling, and bouncing around in my noggin all day...

So i guess i shall just say what needs to be said...
Get it out of my head.

As the day progressed and my mind recharged,
I wondered what i could do you settle your alarm,
Casue those things you say, make me feel all that harm...
Not the harm that others inflicted on you,
But the stuff that you did, to you.

I pondered this many times before, but today it was especially on my mind.
Some may think i am crazy or uneccesarily worrisome, but i think it needs to be done.
You have hurt yourself, and to me you are a special one.
So i keep on wondering, walking around for an answer to be found...
But i am not sure i can find what i want to be found.

And as i think about it more and more, a sheer realization... i cant do a thing.
I feel so useless... so helpless... so sad... i have no use.
Cause i am afraid i cant stop yourself from your own abuse.

Of course your wound is from so long ago,
But you cant seem to let it heal, cause you wont let it go.
I am here to tell you its okay,
You dont have to hurt, not one more day.

Please let it go.
Learn but dont hold on.
I will be here for you all along the way,
But please i beg, do as i say,
Let this pain fall away.
Let this pain fall away.
It doesn't have to stay....

I love you.

Friday, April 9, 2010

Final Plea

Today is the day.
Every part of me is afraid.
At the end a final grade.
Please be careful what you say.

Shaking in my socks
The hours just slug by
With each minute another sigh
So i do my best to avoid the clocks.

You can do it,
It will all be fine.
Do this so you can be mine.
And in my life you can fit.

Today is the day.
Every part of me is afraid.
At the end, a final grade.
So please please be careful what you say.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Sedately Solemn

That sweet sound that tingles in my ear,
Those words i love to hear.
Could i be a luckier human being?
I dont think i could be.
Although not everything in life is set,
And some of the things that happen cause fret.
I Will still be happy.
Thanks to you.

I love the sincere meaning in the sound,
Simple words. Yet so profound.

What did i do to get this?
I just have no idea.
I am sorry to those who came arcoss this path,
But i had already figured out the math.
One plus one will alway be two,
I didnt want to hurt you.

I giggle when they enter into my head,
Cant help but replay what was said.

Where on earth did it come from?
Not from earth.
These words are from above,
Pure heart, pure love.

Give me that sweet sound that tingles in my ear,
Cause those words i love to hear.