Volte Face

When you just want to drop it and run...

Sprint until you are far from the familiar, and not so.

But everywhere you turn is a dead end.

Why must this power remain in my soul?

So sleepy from the circles ive spun

I just want my some day to come.

"Do not live in the future and never in the past.."

Combine those together and it's my days of recent last.

Present... but its not mine.

How can i free myself from the bonds that bind my beating breast?

So sick of the sounds that ive spat at the world.

I just want the world to be silent.

World, listen to my longing

Guide paths in the opposite direction of right now.

Far far away.

I dont want to hike up this hill anymore.

Tricks and tests i can take,

But i beg.

One way path please.

Let my little legs carry me far far away from the intersecting paths.

Im dizzy from the drowsy thoughts swirling around

Pull my feet down, free me from the fright that i have found.

Why must i hold on to the something my soul dispises?

let go..

What happened?

Things once known become things you now knew.

I cant control the creature anymore...

For its out grown the cage.

Set on something bigger and better...

I just want to take the first train

Watch the new settings in the window pain

And never get off...

Yet i want a destination, some stop to call home...

Confused at the inner pull of my megnetic heart.

Scream the sounds somewhere buired deep within.

Let go...

Let go...

Let go...

who that once was, now is not them.

Let it sit inside your sore self,

Hear the thoughts linger in your ears,

Ringing out truth and placing peace into the soul.

so very...

so very...

so very...

correct.

Now universe, and sun, and stars above..

Please.

Allow the little legs, that wish to work,

To take that little girl to... where her heart just took.

One path please.

Far far away from the familiar of the unfamiliar.

Slow dancin under your stary eyes

The strings of lights reflected in those brown pools as

Familiar lyrics and notes played in the backround.

I rested my head on that strong chest and looked out at the sunset;

the last glimps of blue sky brushed over by deep reds, oranges, and pinks.

It was a scene from a movie.

I listened to the heart i knew so well thump into my ear.

I listened to the soft notes you sung as you rested your chin on my head.

close my eyes.

Take it all in.

"im the luckiest girl in all the world."

Kisses showered my forehead.

I love you was softly, tenderly, meaningfully said.

Song after song we swayed this way.

So close.. held so tight.

Two best friends, celebrating what that day was for.

Not the sappy stuff,

but the true feelings shared;

Sharing that we each cared.

As the night progressed we sat at the table that had been set.

A candle lit dinner for two.

Flowers.

Laughter.

Smiles.

We held hands and watched the last of the sun go down.

Your jacket kept me warm, as so did the space heaters.

silence.

No need to speak.

Why break the perfect moment, the perfect feeling, the perfect night.

feel our fingers intertwined.

close my eyes.

Take it all in.

Never forget.. "im the luckiest girl in all the world."

Open my eyes to see you looking at me.

Smiling... not only with your mouth, but

With those brown eyes holding the candle light in them.

My smile.

The smile you only give to me.

I think differently of this day now.

today as the day progressed i remembered why it was okay i was "alone"

I remembered why i wanted to be single.

And why i didnt want any "Valentines"

Cause i want to wait for that.

I dont want any of the fake "i love you's" any more.

Having this day last year made up for this one single year and many more to come becuase,

I know that i only want the real stuff.

Valentines is a great day.

And i cant wait for this kind of thing once more.

The perfect excuse to just share.

Share that you each care.

I love that.

"two times more than you could ever love me..."

its too important to say the way its been

come into my world

your invited please come

let me feel the influence of your soul

have it power over me

wrap me up in those big strapping arms

encompous me in your smile

i want to put my head on your chest and just listen to it thump

hold me tight, dont let me go

let me into your world

i want you in mine

this world is beautiful, but with you by my side its magnificent

sweep me off my feet

indulge my thoughts until i cant sleep

make my cheeks hurt from making me smile

bring the cozy feeling too

the one i only feel when i am around you

listen to the words i speak

your invited please come,

i want you here by me

cause i miss you a ton

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Words simply cannot describe how great of a day this was for me.

AHH it was better than anything!

Ten things that helped make this day one of the best ever.

One, Honey bunches of oats.

Two, had my flirt on today... hmm :) always fun.

Three, i love lacrosse - new girl, wowwwoo this year we are going to do well. So hopeful!

Four, i shaved at walmart.

Five, I have a great job - divas i love you.

Six, realized that in a mere 20 days i will turn that old age of 18. Whoa!

Seven, Also realized that in a 12 days im going to be in disney land. :)

Eight, My family, and friends are crazy amazing, i love them and they support me so much. What more could i ask for?!

And nine... drum roll please.....

ACCEPTED TO BYU HAWAII!!!

Im feeling on top of the world. I probably wont sleep well tonight, but who needs sleep really? My Goodness there is someone up there looking down on me showering me with blessings today. I hope he is smiling cause i cant stop. AHHHH such a good day!!!!!

Ps..number ten... :)