Selfdestruct

I am at battle with myself and myself only.

Go, no, stay.

Come, no, leave.

Love? no, like.

I am confused with my own thoughts.

Good, no, bad.

Talk, no, stay quiet.

I cant even let it out.

Shut up, no, talk!!!

Talk

Talk

Talk

Tell who needs to know.

Tell them.

Do it.

No,

Not again.

What am i doing?

Well, i am trying to heal myself...

When really i am not a doctor.

Its like asking for rain in the desert.

Or like eating strawberries to taste watermelon.

Its not working.

Just like it didnt work for you...

But should i tell you that?

Probably not.

Help.

Say what you feel, no, keep it in.

When do i know what to do?

Rarely.

I am at battle with myself, and neither side is winning,

I am at battle with myself, and i cant heal my wounds fast enough.

I am at battle with myself, trying to work it out,
I am at battle with myself, breaking down inside.

I am at battle with myself, and i cant find a way to win.

I am looking for the rain in a desert,

Eating strawberries for watermelon,

None of it makes any sense.

And that is why im at battle.

come out alive steff... please.