Its hopeless when i open my mouth around you.
I May as well disapear,
Cause you wouldn't even notice if i left...
Well maybe you would but,
The only reason you would is because you needed someone to degrade.
Its hopeless to speak my mind or to tell you your being an ass,
Cause you only argue that i am dumb,
Young and dont know a thing.
Well the truth is you dont know a thing, cause you never ask simple questions.
"how are you steff?" "how was your day?"
Nope nothing. Not unless you are trying to find my faults.
And boy do i love that about you...
And maybe on the rare day when you do ask,
They are to find something wrong, my weaknesses and stupidity.
That is the only purpose.
And to me that is sad.
How did this happen?
You think i hate you, cause i dont talk to you as much as you would like.
But i dont, i just hate the feelings i get when we do talk, so i stay quiet.
Its an interigation of my life, when you ask.
Oh you found the falt? great.
Like i didnt already see it, but that is so nice of you to point it out again,
Then punish me for having it.
Although i am hesitant to admit, cause it may bite me hard later,
I do like it when you are gone during the week.
Cause i feel like a person, not a mistake when you are absent.
I just cant stand this any longer.
You and i always fight, mostly about how i am not to what your standards are.
And if i bring this up to you in person, i will be wrong.
You of course, will be right. Always.
So here i am writing, cause you cant talk back with my feelings here.
So i hope you read these words soon, (and i know you will.)
Then maybe you can understand that almost everything i do, is to try to be a good person.
Although you dont see that, or admit it, that is what drives me.
You are so quick to nit pick but rarely ever say good job.
And if i had all the tears i have shed due to you back, i would have a swimming pool.
But i dont and i am dry to the bone.
So please, here me out, i love you.
Im trying so hard.
Please try to see that.
Open your eyes and see who i am,
And not, who im not.